so. my mom's ex-husband shot and killed himself tonight. in my mom's front yard. wow. that looks bad.
so. its complicated. of course it is.
so. i've never been angrier at a single person in my entire life, but i'm sad. or maybe i think i should be and the anger is blocking my feeling factory. i want to cry, but i think its more for my mom and what she's been and is gonig through. but i cant cry. i cant do anything.
so. i'm tired.