its late and i, as usual, cannot sleep. so, i will tell you guys about my visit to the Ear, Nose, and Throat (ENT) Specialist. yea, i had another visit to that dude today and i will continue to see him at least twice a year until one of us relocates or dies.
the good news remains, i do not have a hole of any kind in my left eardrum. BUT, the eardrum is retracted into my middle ear so you can very cleary see the joint of my incus and stapes (dont quote me on those words. i think thats what the man said), which is potentially bad... one day... maybe.
why is it bad you ask? oh, let me tell you in my vague, potentially incorrect terms.
so, one day, as my eardrum continues to retract into my middle ear, it can be pinched between the joint of the incus and stapes. that can cause a tear (or something) and develop a cholesteatoma which is definately uncool. just check out that wiki picture. its gross.
his potential solution to my delima: attempt to pop my ears by pinching my nose closed and gently blowing. apparently people can pop their ears this way or so he tells me. this MIGHT encourage my eardrum to de-retract and back off of that joint. you know, give the joint some breathing room. stupid ear drum, moving his shit in too soon, all up in the joint's personal space.
anywho, if the eardrum gets too much cozier, then i might end up with a tube in the ear anyhow to help regulate the pressure and hopefully prevent it from getting pinched. having a tube installed in my head is way easier and (shockingly) more comforting than having an real surgery to remove a freakin tumor from my nogin. thats way too close to my brain and junk to place lasers, or knives, or poking sticks or anything else one might use to remove a tumor.
oh wells. it doesnt hurt. i can hear. i'll go see him again on october 3rd.
**please dont quote me on of this. as usual, i dont really know what i'm talking about, but i like letting the little gnome that lives in my head have his say now and again. husband is sick of listening to him.